How do you know when you have found the one - that special little person who is meant to be part of your family. We have received a couple of waiting child lists so far, one of which had over 100 children listed. It breaks my heart reading through their profiles and learning about each of their struggles and challenges that they have had to face already in their precious young lives. I wish we could adopt them all. They all need a family so badly. Unfortunately we can only choose one of them. On the list we received last week there was a little girl that we felt really drawn to. She has a pretty significant disability that would present quite a challenge for us, but it is also one that I feel we could take on. We decided to pray about it as a family and ask the Lord if she is the one for us. So far we have not received any lightning bolt answers, so how do we know if we should move forward with this and try to adopt her or not. I have pondered this question a lot the last few days and have come to a couple different conclusions. I have come to realize that you don't have to receive a "lightning bolt" answer for something to be right or good. Sometimes you have to decide things for yourself and then act on them. If it is something right or good then you will start to see the Lord's hands directing the process and helping you to accomplish it. Something can also be right or good but not be the right thing for you or your family. I believe that in these cases when you act on your decision the Lord's hands will still be in the process but He will be working in the opposite direction that will eventually lead you down a different path.
We decided today to go ahead and try to get matched with her. We feel that we were drawn to her for a reason and all of us agreed that we wanted her in our family. My husband and I, along with our oldest daughter, are still a little apprehensive about how we will deal with her special needs but we still feel that it is something we will be able to handle. Our younger kids have no apprehensions about it, because they really don't understand what it will be like to have a sibling with disabilities. They just think she is adorable and are excited they might get to have a little sister. I have chosen not to give out very much information about her on this blog for now. I feel it would be better to wait until we know for sure if we will be able to move forward with her adoption or not.
